So I should start my period today or tomorrow. Why is this relevant, you may ask? Technically, I should start the little bleeder on Saturday but I am simply not fortunate enough to be a regular girl. Life is not kind to people like me, instead we get 25-26 days between cycles and cycles that last 5 days. 5 days, in which blood output is not measured in teaspoons like the tampon makers would have you think (who does that? Who measured menstrual blood by teaspoon? Do the Tampax people not understand that does some real emotional scarring when you make Nestle's Tollhouse Cookies? We think: One teaspoon of baking powder...oh! That's a super plus absorbancy right there!) but by the outpouring of the Hoover Dam.
My periods, they are heavy.
So I should start my next period in the next day or so. From then, I can calculate when I get my next period (which will be smack dab in the middle of our family holiday we have planned. Specifically, I should be flowing like a stuck pig right about the time I'll be in a swimsuit in South Pacific waters. Nice.)
What does that matter, you may ask?
As of that period-due beginning of March, I have to call my clinic on Day 1 of the period.
21 days after Day 1 of my period, it all starts. The nose sprays, the bloating, the crying jags, the emotional instability...and the IVF. In just over a month and a half, the kickoff happens once the ref throws the ball into the air. Honestly, in some weird way, I cannot wait. I know IVF is hard, I've been there before. I know it's hard on the body, hard on the person, hard on people around you...but it's the start. It's the attempt. It's the first chance we will have as a couple together to try to have a baby of our own.
So any day now, Period Fairy. I know I'm not alone in asking you to get your ass in gear here, but any day now...
Posted by Vanessa at February 2, 2006 12:31 PM | TrackBackI was scrolling throught the munu roll, and found you. My fingers are crossed for you - I'm not into the IVF stage yet, but am visiting with the "fertility gods" this month. I'll be back - without sounding so stalkerish, I hope :)
Posted by: Alex at February 3, 2006 12:45 AMI know how it feels to be anxious for the period. It's the beginning of a new cycle of hope. So I'll be hoping Aunt Flo makes her entrance very soon for you.
Oh, thought I'd share with you that my One Person announced her pregnancy to me yesterday. Since it's my SIL, I had to fake happiness for her. Then I hung up the phone and bawled like a baby. I can't post about it on my own blog because my brother reads it, so I'm venting on yours. Sorry.
Posted by: donna at February 2, 2006 01:58 PM